Ndikuti ndikakhala chete
Kaludzu and Chiyendausiku are my two lovely places that have something to do with me hence the blog title.Here i am talking about my experiences in life,its where i feel i can express my feelings and mind better.This is how i feel i can talk a lot more so that those who want to hear my mind will hear and maybe understand me better. .WAS BORN ME BY GOD'S AMAZING GRACE.I BELIEVE THAT THE PERSON WHO WORKS THE HARDEST WINS.I CAN NEVER RELAX-ALWAYS TRYING TO SEE WHATS NEXT.
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
TIDALI AWILI
Ndikuti ndikakhala chete
Tuesday, 25 November 2008
STILL STANDING
Through the bad rough times
Through the dangerous tides
With strong winds from all directions
I am still standing
In one direction like a river
My life and fate has flown so far
Sky high,like a kyte
My luck has blown,
From all angles,shots have been fired
I am still standing.
Curses you have tried to cast,
Loved ones have been taken away
M emotions,you have tested
Loosing you have ended up,
Killer in your blood is flowing
Still i am standing
Takind me down you have failed,
So much bad,about me is said,
Behind fakes you have tailed,
Death rides you have hailed,
Soon come,down under you go
Slowly,being eaten,
Yet i am still standing
The plus you have,
The minus i have remained,
Blood in your hand you carry,
So much bad of me you say,
Shocked i have been,
In all weathers....
I will still stand strong
REST IN PEACE BRO YAMZ..MISSING THE JOKES BRO..SOME ARE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!
(C)Lalli.Inc
Saturday, 22 November 2008
WHY YO HAD TO GO BROTHER?
You had to go brother
Its had to take man,
Who i am say man to?
A bad day you had to bro
It was my birthday you know,
Come on talk to me
Why you chose to go on this day
The 22nd of Nov,08
Is a day that you have gone under
To others you are gone
To us in our minds you remain
We love you bro,
Come on talk to me Yamzy
Talk to me brother,
Tell me how life is in the other world,
Look after us brother,
Smile at us brother,
Kiddo young Gee keeps asking,
Is uncle Yamzy looking after us?
I know you are brother
I am asking you to talk to me bro,
Come on talk to me,
I am sorry i wasnt around to help brother,
At the time when you needed help,
Why did you go the way you did bro,
I have so many questions brother
MAY YOU RIP down there brother
I know you are at Mdekela
We are coming behind you bro,
Clear the way and make room for us,
We love you so much bro..
REST IN PEACE..BROTHER YAMZ..
Thursday, 20 November 2008
BRO YAMZ
They dont know the pain inside me
Its cutting deep brother,
Its cutting deep like a knife
Its so painfull brother
You meant so much to me
Each night my pillow is wet
Wet with tears of sorrow
I am crying for you brother
That my son shouldnt see me crying
For he keeps asking of you brother
You were close to him bro,
Its so painfull that i cannot be with
On your way home
Bro,you came here walking ,
Passing through the checkpoints
But today sleeping forever you are
Not seeing where you are going
The wound is so deep bro,
Its a stab in my heart bro
Who am i gonna be with
You know my troubles bro
Please bro,come talk to me
Talk to me in my sleep,
Ask God to help me bro
For i am in deep pain
I am at loss bro
You have left me lonely
In the middle of the of the sea.
I will cry forever bro
No tears will bring you back
No words of encouragement
Will calm me down
For it pains so badly bro,
The wounds are incurablbe
RIP BRO YAMIKANI...
Thursday, 13 November 2008
SLOWLY
As you go to bed
The pillow under your head
I say a prayer to God almighty.
To be with us in this time
Alone brov,iam in this foreign land
Alone bro you are lying in there
I saw you smiling at me
When i knelt down there
Praying on my own
Your cold body lying on that bed
Angels are watching over brov
I am asking for his protection bro
Its nice to have a sigh and sleep in peace
Away from the trobles of this world bro
I know you are better off where you are
Bt you hav left me alone bro
Slowly bro,
Angels are watching,
I think i will get a call ,
That a mistake was made,
That you ae coming back home bro,
I keep waiting for that bro,
Slowly,slowly bro
My heart is being eaten away..
RIP BRO YAMZ
ITS SO MUCH BROTHER
One is i have lost you brov
So much to wail about,there is so much weeping
I am failing to cry brov
For i dont really know what to say,
Tears are slowly bleeding inside me
I am in fear brov and my heart in pain
Its so much pain to bear bro,
When i saw you sleeping in that bed
Your body so cold bro
How bad is the pain that i have br
Smile at me up there bro
How sad that we are in tears
Goodness knows why there is so much pain in life
Tell Dickens,Mary,Lamec,
Duncan,Betty,Yosiyas and all
To come and talk to us bro
Tell them to smile for us bro
How sad life can be sometimes
May Gods grace be with us bro
I know you are smiling bro
You left us two bro
My kiddo Jnr is asking bro
Where is Uncle Yami daddie
In heaven i have told him you are bro,
Sad you lying thete in the morgue alone bro
Its so much pain for me brov
Tuesday, 11 November 2008
BROTHER..OH BROTHER!!!!!!
Brother why not saying bye to me
Brother,alone you have left me
Brother,three we were,
Brother,two you have left us.
REST IN PEACE BROTHER..
I KNOW GOD IS LOOKING AFTER YOU.
ASK HIM TO FORGIVE US BROTHER..
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ,I WILL MISS YOU BROTHER.
JUNIOR KEEPS TALKING OF YOU BROTHER..
WHAT DID I DO TO GET THIS BROTHER???
Wednesday, 5 November 2008
Thursday, 30 October 2008
YOU HAVE
Tried to dampen,
My image you have tried to blacken
Yes you have failed.
My health you have tried to taint,
My soul so pure and white,
But black you have tried to paint
Yes you have failed.
A killer bullet you have tried,
To hit me with,but
Bullet proof i have been.
In a marathon you have
Wanted to compete,
Yes you have failed to complete.
Suprised you were ,
When the test i passed,
Amazed you were ,
When he bullet mised me
Yet fatal blow has knocked your brain out..
Yes you have,
Who is smiling..
Monday, 20 October 2008
WE MADE IT....or I?
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall
See a nigga survived the worst
But my life is glorious (uh! )
But I know that I leaped every hurdle
And I'm so victorious (uh! )
Take a look I'm a symbol of greatness
Now call a nigga Morpheus (yeah)
As force securin' the win, but they
Believe I'm so notorious (yeah)
You know that I've been 'bout my bread
Even though we rappin' now (yes)
We used to live on the strip even though
A nigga higher level trappin' now (oh! )
Superseded everyone of my little struggles and (uh! )
So failure has never ever been an option (trust)
A nigga paper long like rush hour traffic
And I'm about to take the hood shoppin' (get it! )
Together we made it (sing we did it niggas)
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall (come on)
Forever we waited (ah hah)
And they told us we were never gonna
Get it all we took it on the road
To the riches (on the road)
To the ghetto (on the road)
In the projects, to this bangin' instrumental (on the road)
Ride with me (on the road)
Come and get it (on the road)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yo
When it all got started we were steadily
Just getting rejected
And it seemed like nothin' we could do
Could ever get us respected
At best we were stressed at the worst
They probably said we're pathetic
Had all the pieces to that puzzle
Just the way to connect it
I was fighting through every rhyme
Tightening up every line
Never restin' the question if I
Was out of my mind
It finally came time to do it or let it die
So we put the chips on the table and
Told them to let it ride, sing it (yeah)
Together we made it (sing we did it niggas)
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall (come on)
Forever we waited (ah hah)
And they told us we were never gonna
Get it all we took it on the road
To the riches (on the road)
To the ghetto (on the road)
In the projects, to this bangin' instrumental (on the road)
Ride with me (on the road)
Come and get it (on the road)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, look
In case you misunderstand exactly what I'm buildin'
And shit that I could leave for
My children (children) children (children)
Now on the wake up I smile, to see how far I've come (yeah)
Fighting for sales when I'm stripped
To negate the hustle from (yeah)
From nights in jail on a bench using my muscles son (yeah)
To countin' money like Dre and Jimmy and Russel was (yeah nigga)
But now I live when I dream, you see we finally did it (oh! )
Let's make a toast to the hustle
Regardless how you get it, sing it
Together we made it (sing we did it niggas)
We made it even though we had our backs
Up against the wall (come on)
Forever we waited (ah hah)
And they told us we were never gonna
Get it all we took it on the road
To the riches (on the road)
To the ghetto (on the road)
In the projects, to this bangin' instrumental (on the road)
Ride with me (on the road)
Come and get it (on the road)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
SECRETLY.........
I'm wanting you
And I'm hoping you want me too
I smell your scent across the room
And I can't wait to get next to you
It's like I'm lost
I don't know
But this feeling that I have about you
Will you ever know
Secretly
I'm wanting you
And I'm hoping you want me too
I smell your scent across the room
And I can't wait to get next to you
Whatever I see (when I look at you across the room)
Whatever I hear (I wonder if he loves me too)
Whatever I do (I just think about you for hours)
Oh
Baby
And it's got me thinking of you
Secretly
I'm wanting you
And I'm hoping you want me too
I smell your scent across the room
And I can't wait to get next to you
Whenever you speak
Whenever you
Oooh
Whenever you breath
Baby
Let me touch you
Please
Secretly
I'm wanting you
And I'm hoping you want me too
I smell your scent across the room
And I can't wait to get next to you
Secretly
I'm wanting you
And I'm hoping you want me too
I smell your scent across the room
And I can't wait to get next to you
It smells so good
I just wanna... kiss you
I wanna... lay with you
I don't know how to tell you
But secretly
I want you
I just wanna get next to you
Tuesday, 14 October 2008
SO WHAT..
You think you are mastering art
Who ya fooling around
They see you smiling,
They thing you are that good
So what do you think
Ya thought i gonna die with ya
Ya thought i will be on next plane to ya
I ended up laughing at ya
So what you are dong now?
Yo think i will be bothered
You are just a fool
A tool being used,
Some are looking the light skin.,
But get deeper ya see the rot
So what!!
Tuesday, 7 October 2008
CHEERIO BABE
Don't you know i'm in love with you?
If you don't belive i do,
Then why don't you try me?
I'm never going to let you down,
Never make you wear no frown.
If you say you love me madly,
Then i will receive you gladly.
Cherry oh, cherry oh, baby,
Don't you know i'm in need of thee?
If you don't believe me it's true,
What have you left me to do?
So long i've been waiting,
For you to come right in.
And now that we are together,
Please make my joys come over.
Oh oh ee oh ee oh,
Oh oh ee oh ee oh ee oh.
Yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yeah,yah.
Oh yeah.Yeah,yeah,yeah.
Cherry, oh, cherry, oh, baby,
Dont you know i'm in love with you?
If you don't belive i do ,
Then why don't you try me?
I'm never gonna let you down,
Never make you wear no frown.
If you say you love me madly,
Then i will recieve you gladly.
Cherry, oh, cherry, oh, baby,
Don't you know i'm in love with you?
If you don't belive i do ,
Then why don't you try me?
I'm never gonna let you down,
Never make you wear no frown.
If you say you love me madly,
Then why do you treat me badly
.........
Friday, 3 October 2008
SOMETIMES LIFE IS..........
For any woman nor man
Your tears are worth
Yesterday is history,tomorrow is a mystery
Today is present and take it as it is
If someone is dumb enough to walk away,
Then be wise to let them go,
Its hard to wait around for something,
Something that may never happen,
But even harder to give it up,
Especially when its something
You have been wanting all along
I believe that everything happens for reason,
People change so that you can learn to let go
Things go wrong so that they can be corrected,
So that appreciation can be made when they go right
Sometimes things fall apart,
So that better things can fall together,
You believe less,and eventually trust noone
But yourself,
So life is…
Find a person who loves you
For who you are,good morals,bad moods,ugly pretty.
The right person is still going to think
The sun shines out of your ass
And that’s the kind of person worth sticking with,
Life is….too short
But anything too short to be happy,
So kiss slowly,love deeply and forgive quickly,
Take chances and never have regrets,
Forget the past,
But always remember what it has taught you,
When life gives you lemons,make lemonade,
Then find someone with vodka
And have a party..life is a joke..
BE CAREFULL WITH PET PARROTS
``Oh,I don`t mind that,``says the woman.``I am broadminded and it will be a laugh having a profane parrot.’’
So she buys the bird and takes him home. When the parrot gets to the new home,it looks around and squawks,``fuck me,a new brothel and a new madam.’’.
``Hey,I am not a madam and this is not a brothel!!.’’says the woman, trying not to laugh.
A while later her two teenage daughters arrive home from school….The parrots squawks loud..``un-fucking-believable.’’says the parrot.``A new brothel,a new madam and two new hookers.’’
``Mum ,this is nasty would you please tell your parrot that we are not hookers and it should shut up.’’complain the girls.
A while later, the woman’s husband Dave comes home from work too .The bird squawks,``this is incredible,a new brothel,new madam,new hookers,but the same old clients.Oi,How ya doin, Dave?’’
…Imagine this happening to you…THE REST IS UP TO YOU DECIDE WHAT HAPPENED AFTER THIS
DOING JUST FINE
And that was to compete,
Competition was the mission,
I saw this from the fusion,
But i did just fine,
Thought i am gonna fail,
Thought i am gonna tail you
I am a fighter ,
I have gone in tighter jungles,
And i am now doing just fine,
Angels upon me are smiling,
My little one is smiling too,
That makes me do just fine
(c)Gerald,2009
Wednesday, 1 October 2008
BE THE ONE
You have been trying you said,
I have been looking as well,
I have been trying as well,
But unlcky i have been,
Hope i will be the one,
I saw you biting those finger nails,
You seem shy with those blue eyes of yours,
I cant stop thinking of you,
Smiling at me across the dinner table,
Gazing straight into my eyes,
You have driven me in your car,
You have driven me crazy,
Hope you truely mean what yo say,
And hope in me you believe,
And hope i will be the one,
My brain is thinking non stop
My heart is running faster,
I am having sleepless nights,
Thinkin of you non stop,
My heart if falling for you,
Slowly it is being taken away,
Slowly i am beginging to smile again
Its all because of you,
Life was all but a waste,
But on snails pace,
I am begining to realise again,
Its worth living,
Hope this time you will be the one
(c)..Gerald..2008Inc...for his flower , that makes him smile..
Monday, 4 August 2008
AS DAY GOES..
And night falls
Life goes on.........
And i forget all
As day goes
And night falls
Each new day brings new things
Life goes on and i am coping well
Wednesday, 30 July 2008
MEMORIES
Tuesday, 29 July 2008
LOVE IS GONE
What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone
love is gone
What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone ?
There is nothing left to prove
No use to deny this simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone, love is gone
Now that the love is gone, what felt so right's so wrong
Now that the love is gone
I feel so hurt inside, feel so hurt inside, got to find the reason
What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone ?
There is nothing left to prove
No use to deny this simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone, love is gone
Got to find a reason, got to find a reason,
Got to find a reason to hold !
Love, there's nothing left for us to say, yeah !
Love, why can't we turn and walk away ?
What are we supposed to do
After all that we've been through
When everything that felt so right is wrong
Now that the love is gone ?
There is nothing left to prove
No use to deny this simple truth
Can't find the reason to keep holding on
Now that the love is gone, love is gone
Love is gone !
(c)GLN,2008 Inc.
COME ON ,WAKE UP MALAWI LAW MAKERS..
Its sad that things have come to this stage.Imagine the phsycological impact this will have on their families.According to the pictures that i have seen,these people must have very grown up children who are in the know of the what and what's of the world,the goings on the world that is.
We Malawians should ask ourselves plenty questions...
By the wayj i dont see a reason why there is so much fuss being made abouth these guys taking pictures.The pictures to me are very personal property.Something that these 3 people each agreed to take and keep in private.Why are the police busy looking for them,arresting them.Ohhh come on,i think we are still using the laws of colonial times.What are the law makers doing.?You go in parliament and debate silly stuff.You go there and talk about your salaries,what benefits you have to get.We are in the millenium now.Update the laws please.We didnt have such kind of things those days when some of the laws were written.Proper amendments definately need to be done so as to be in line with the times.
To me the guy who sold the pictures to the newpapers(who i understand to be a computer techniacian)is the one to to be sold for ''breach or trust''.How can he do that silly thing.?Whay are we Malawians making so much of a fuss about this.Ask orself why the HIV rate in Malawi is so high..why ?why?why..???Do you want an answer from me...here it is..The answer is because we people engange in too much sex,too much adulterly,too much sexual partners as we can see in this case.So doubtful that chishango was used in these instances.
But what i am saying again here is,people are making a story of this ,who does not know that adults have sex,there are lots of blue movie films around,lots of magazines with naked women and men.SO WHAT?WHY THE FUSS..??.By writing this its not that i am encouraging people to cheat on their partners.Its not good to cheat on your loved ones.They all did wrong by cheating on their partners.
These guys have just been unlucky.I am telling you he is not the only one to do this.There are lots of people out there in the contry who have done this before and are now thinking twice.Thinking of the proper security measures to take..Come on people thats why we have memory sticks and CDs to keep record of our private files in case our computers get into silly hands like this silly technician.
I have seen in some countries people suing.The technian here breached his customers trust.He should also face the law for distributing these pictures and invasion of privacy.To the courts in Malawi if you dont know, these are just a few other charges that can be put forward to the technian.Others can learn from this.What kind of laws are we based on guys.Come on and do the necessary amendments to the laws please.Tell me what does the DATA PROTECTION ACT in Malawi say,I would like to know more about it.Where can i go and read it..In National Library???
In some countries this guy would have been a millionare..Look,some people have been making picture CDs and selling out of his fame.Ohh poor man and women.Iknow you wish the world could just swallow you,but dont be stupid to commit suicide..This is gonna pass like water under a bridge
The police are wasting their precious time looking for him,arresting him .Why cant they go and arrest proper robbers?Why cant they go in town and arrest all the illegal Nigerians,Asians living in the country.Spend yourtime wisely guys.You are arresting this guy because he is an easy target,there is no story worthy making an arrest .What about this story that i have read about a certain teacher taking video clips of kids being raped.Those are stories we should be interested in.
THESE PEOPLE ARE GROWN UPS AND THEY KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING?LEAVE THEM ALONE PLEASE.
Are you telling me that you dont know that adults do sex.They moreover did it in a locked room.So why wasting tax payers money for such kind of things..Go and get the real robbers,the real criminals not someone having consentual sex..Silly laws..i say.
Sunday, 27 July 2008
Thursday, 24 July 2008
LIKE A TATOO
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later,
I'll get what I'm asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything
I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I couldStop,
admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind
Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you
WHO AM I....
For Christ Lord,a lot he went through,
He was tortured on the cross,
And a number of desert temptations,
Suns rays burning him,
Who am i to despair,
For there si no need to repair
For Lord Christ was deceived
So with both hands i have received
The decision that you have made
The truth you people hate
But i feel its too late
Who am i to worry
For Lors Christ was also betrayed
By the same people,
That daily he spent time with
Who from the same plate he ate with
Who am i that
All night long i should cry,
Flooding my bed with tears
Drenching my couch for years
Who am i to be defamed
For my sons sake i will not be destroyed
For him i will stand film
.......so who am i
You tell me me who am i
But i think i am who i am..
(c)GLNandolo.2008.Inc
Wednesday, 23 July 2008
SOME MIGHT SAY....
Go and tell it to the man who cannot shine
Some might say that we should never ponder
On our thoughts today cos they will sway over time
Some might say we will find a brighter day
Some might say we will find a brighter day
Cos I've been standing at the station
In need of education in the rain
You made no preparation for my reputation once again
The sink is full of fishesShe's got dirty dishes on the brain
It was overflowing gently but it's all elementary my friend
Some might say they don't believe in heaven
Go and tell it to the man who lives in hell
Some might say you get what you've been given
If you don't get yours I won't get mine as well
Some might say we will find a brighter day
Some might say we will find a brighter day
Cos I've been standing at the station
In need of education in the rain
You made no preparation for my reputation once again
The sink is full of fishes
Cos she's got dirty dishes on the brain
And my dog's been itchin'
Itchin' in the kitchen once again
Some might say
Some might say
He is crying over spilt milk...
...hahahahahahaha.
(c)Lalli.2008 Inc
DON'T LOOK BACK IN ANGER
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
All the things that you've seen
Are slowly fade away
So I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So she cant wait - she says its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away -
but don't look back in angerI hear you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll bandWho'll throw it all away
So I start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I have went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So she cant wait - she says its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away - but don't look back in angerI hear you say
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
At least not today
Stay focussed,
The past never comes for sure.
...(c)GL,2008,Inc
IT WAS CROWDED
It was a group,
That i was chocked,
It wasnt just us,coz
Others on the wings ,
Through the thin walls were listening,
Like roots they are,
Meeting underground living you in darkness,
They thought am in the unknown,
But some from within them
To me they came.
It was so crowded inside
And i got out now.
They talked hot air,
I was so crowded,
A lot came into my ears,
Taming me they failed,
Blaming me they were and they are,
Plucked out luckily i was,
For a thorn i was called,
Others hailed me,
Others failed me.
Words they said believed,
For they are many,
Nasties have been said
Like pasties,
Hasty they were to judge me
'coz they didnt understand me
'coz me they did underestimate
Reason why, i distanced myself
So much my tiny ears took,
So much i had to let go,
So quiet i stayed,
No questions i asked
Fedup i got,
A million whys will be said,
Singled out i will be
The source of the problem,
I will be called,
For it was so crowded,
No space i had to breathe,
Happy i am ,that i can now,
FREE IAM AT LAST
FROM THE CROWD
(c)Lalli,2008 Inc..copyright reserved.
Tuesday, 22 July 2008
MY WORDS OF INSPIRATION
- Respect is earned bt when it is lost,it is so difficult to gather.
- We are authors and makers of our own destiny.Fo whoever loves discipline,loves knowledge.Those who hate corrections are stupid.
- A wife of noble character is a husbands crown,but a disgarceful wife is like cancer of the bones.
- Leave your simple ways and you will live,when pride comes first,then comes disgrace.
- The harder you work,the harder it becomes to surrender to things like fatigue,complaceny,discouragement and criticism.And all other stff that tries to break your stride.
BE PATIENT...
I cant always have what i want.For i always have to wait...
Because waiting is an art,
If i can for a period,
I can achieve something
I couldnt achieve today however hard i work,
And fight for,
How much money i make,
However many times i bang my head against the wall.
There are things i cant have today
That i will be able to have in future,
So it does not make sense to drive
Myself crazy....and put
Mylife on hold .......struggling,
To accomplish something,
That will be easy when time is right
.....SAY THIS TO YOURSELF GERALD Somethings happen in our lives for a reason,to teach us various lessons..The latest is a blessing in disguise,so dont push matters,dont worry yourself,for a day will come when you will have a smile on your face....
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Thursday, 17 July 2008
I DONT KNOW WHY
You said you’d wait
I said I’d hope you would
We talked til late
Until we walked away
What’s meant to be will be they say
And I feel like stone
And I feel ice cold
I picked myself up from the ground
Sick to death of lying down
And now I have to find you once again
You’re in my soul, you’re in my mind
But I don’t know where you are now
Driving round and roundUntil it’s dawn
To look for you in rooms we used to go
I held you back I had to set ya free
But now I know what’s meant to be
You’re in my soul, you’re in my mind
But I don’t know where you are now
...MAYBE 2MORO...
I’m wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me, with me
It wastes time
And I’d rather be high
Think I’ll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free, they’re all free
So maybe tomorrowI’ll find my way home
I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upper side of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe, we breathe
I wanna breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me
All meSo maybe tomorrow
I’ll find my way home
............(Stereophonics song)..I love it..means a lot to me..
Wednesday, 16 July 2008
He is ready and there to..
Strengthen the feeble hands,
Steady the knees that give way,
Say to those with fearful hearts,
Be strong, do not fear
Your saviour will come
With vengeance and divide retribution,
He will come to save you
…And give you strength.
I GAVE HER TIME….(REV 2V 21)
When God tells you to repent, he gives you time and grace to do it. If you don’t there are consequences. I gave her time to repent for her immorality, but she would not. Everyone will be repaid according to their deeds. Those who commit adultery with her will suffer intensively..
Others who know me might say these are just tears. I laugh at you that its not. Its better the devil you know than you don’t. Get the problems away from me..
FORGETTING THE PAST..
-Focused people don’t live in the past. A retentive memory may be a good thing, but the ability to forget is a token of greatness. Successful people forget. Gerald, be a good forgetter…success demands it. Its only the poorer minded who seek revenge. You have been through a lot Gerald…take it by the chin and you will get through this, all for your little boy.
-Focused people don’t think about the difficulties, but rewards. If you dwell on difficulties too long you will start to develop self-pity. As a result you will accomplish less and less. By focussing on results you will stay encouraged. Make Christ an example ‘he was willing to die a shameful death on the cross because of the joy he knew would be his afterwards.
-Focused people choose their friends carefully. Here are five types of people you encounter:
(A) REFRESHERS: Those who strengthen your faith and energize you.
(B) REFINERS: Who sharpen you and clarify your vision…ARE YOU READING THIS YOU BACKSTABBERS, WHO SPEND TIME TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE, MAKING OTHERS LOOK BAD…. you don’t have a vision at all…. TOO MYOPIC.
(C) REFINERS: Who mirror your energy neither adding to nor subtracting from it.
(D) REDUCERS: Who try to diminish your goals and efforts to their comfort level…HAHAHA THIS MAKES ME LAUGH, BECAUSE THEY CANT MANAGE ME, THEY HAVE FAILED IN SO MANY WAYS.THEY THOUGHT AM GONNA HANG THE LAST TIME I WAS IN A MESS,BUT THEY GOT A SHOCK OF THIR LIVES…SO YOU UNDERSTAND NOW,YOU MUPPETS …DON’T MESS WITH A KNIFE COZ IT CUTS..YOU CANT BRING ME DOWN.GONE THROUGH THE JUNGLES OF GOWA, THOSE STEEP HILLS.
(E) REJECTORS: Who don’t understand you or whats God is called to do…this is so funny. So many have rejected me. They have said things like Gerald is difficult, but in actual sense I am not…YOU JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND ME AS SIMPLE AS THAT!!!!!!!!
So I remain focused and I hope to stay grounded. I am not going to fall down easily. The praise of others is less likely to go to my head and the negative impact of my critics will be minimised..
I WILL STILL STAY FOCUSED( IF YOU THOUGHT OTHERWISE)
I will therefore stay focused despite the drawbacks and distractions that I have met here in the wild. Sometimes you sit down and think this is it for me. But in actual fact its not. You have a long way to go. I am a fighter and I will keep fighting for my Minnie my blood relations and me. . Nobody is going to bring me down.. Tupac said ‘‘only God can judge me.’’
I am of the belief that people who stay focused make the greatest difference in life. Nothing is as potent as a focused life.
The first law of success in this day when so many things are clamouring for attention is concentration; to bend our energies to one point, and to go directly that point. Looking neither right nor left…it’s a discipline that must be practised. By staying focused I will keep my targets, increase my energy and get lifted when others think I may go down…Loosers.
SLOWLY,STEADILY,SURELY,THE TIME APPROACHES WHEN THE VISION WILL BE FULFILLED.
When God gave me a vision, he also gave me a provision needed to fulfil it. No matter what may. Even if others try to put me down by their deeds and sayings. He will use something I already posses even though you don’t know it. The key to my success is found in the words. ``Go and see”.
For he will save and deliver me, from all those who pursue me,
He will rise against the rage of my enemies and judge me according to my righteousness.
So I will stop making excuses, feeling sorry for myself, talking myself down or being intimidated by those who say i don’t have what it takes. God has provided everything where I need to go. Life is a joke. Life is a game that we are just playing and God knows the winner.
I will look into the mirror and announce, I am full of resources. This is not hype, pride or over-minded matter…IT’S FAITH SPEAKING.
So I am not worried about it all. That’s another stage in life. Slowly,steadily,surely,the vision will be fulfilled. The deepest wounds in life come not from swords but words and actions.
Remember that don’t despise the small things. Every oak tree starts as an acorn; Jesus began in a stable but didn’t stay there. David had a sling but he became king. Joseph was sold as a slave but he became a Prime Minister..WHY??Because God was with him. Gave him favour and wisdom…made him Governor of Egypt. Just put it into God’s hands and have the will to start small…THEY WILL ALL BE PROVED WRONG.
I will have to struggle. Without struggle you cannot develop your full potential! Have you ever watched an ant carrying home a piece of bread that’s bigger than him. Success belongs to those too small to carry what they believe in, but stubborn to leave it behind. The secret of success is GOOD DECISISONS AND GOOD DECISIONS ARE MADE BY BAD ONES.
A dream without corresponding action only aggravates the soul and amounts to nothing. God will give you the power to succeed but you have to take it, develop a plan and work it.
Personal breakthroughs begin with a change in your beliefs. What you believe in deep down determines what you expect. So be strong and courageous. Your life will expand or shrink in proportion..
Tuesday, 15 July 2008
TO MUM AND DAD
Monday, 16 June 2008
LITTLE MAN
I know its tough and i am not being a good Dad but what can i do.I promise to be coming home every week and see you and hope that i will get back home with you soon.
Please Ju,work hard i class as you are in yor ealry days ,make hay while the sun shines.I love you little man..